Last week Tetona Dunlap from the Times News came by and interviewed me and then later ran this front page article, Following Ordeal , A Refuge for Haitian Girls is Created. I’ll be the first to tell you that where we are today is not where we thought we would be four years ago. Our aim was too short sighted. Our purpose was narrow in perspective. But following the ordeal, God has done for His glory. The pleasure for me is not in where we are, but rather what God still has in store for His glory and our joy in Him.
In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words; and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. For those whom He foreknew, He also predestined to become conformed to the image of His Son, so that He would be the firstborn among many brethren; and these whom He predestined, He also called; and these whom He called, He also justified; and these whom He justified, He also glorified. (Romans 8:26-30 NASB)
I’ll probably learn from this for the rest of my life, the value of reflecting on those days is how God provided. Not to reflect on how hard those days were, but how good God was.
It took me time to put my pride aside. I wanted at first to clarify to people what happened so that people wouldn’t look at me the way the media portrait had painted me. I still find this urge to defend what happened as a gross injustice. But listen, to realize that what God was doing, and still is doing, and always will be doing, has been the most liberating reality in better understanding the nature of God. God is at liberty to cause discomfort in my life for his glory. God is even fair to walk me through a dark valley for his glory. And His doing this for His sake is for my good.